Michael's POV

"Michael I just can't take this anymore!!!" Alica screams at me. "Well fine I just leave then!!" I scream back. I don't know what to do with us anymore.

It's seemes like everyday is becoming a battle for us.

"You know what Michael you are a coward!!" She screams. You think the only way to solve you problems is to run from them!!" I glared at her. If looks could kill she'd be dead right now. "I'm just playing it safe!" I shot back.

"Well I'm not going to stand for that!!" She said "I'm not going to take the easy way out like a punk ass!!" "Oh so now I'm a punk ass?" I asked. "What the hell is wrong with you?!?" "What's wrong with me is that I don't like to go down without a fight!!" She shot back. Lately she was becoming very feisty.

"We're going to fight this and try to make it right!!" "That's why were going to see a marriage counselor!!"

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That's how we got here. Just ridding in the car on our way to the marriage counselor. It was completely silent. No music; no words just breathing. I looked at out of the corner of my eye. Her lips were pursed and she had no expression on her face. She had been looking like that a lot lately. We used to be so happy. What ever happened to our love?

I pulled into the parking lot of the office. "we're here." I announced. "Great." She said dryly not looking at me. This is killing me inside.

"Don't move." I commanded. "I'll get the door." she glared at me. It was the first time she looked at me all day. "I'll get it myself Jackson." She said sharply. She hasn't even been calling by my first name anymore.

Once it was Michael, Mike, Mikey , Babe or honey. Now I'm just; Jackson. It's amazing how things change.

She widely opened the door; got out and loudly slammed the door. "You know I really don't want to do this either." I said. "Look Jackson where here now." "Might as well make the best of it."

And that's the day we started trying.

Alica's POV

We stepped in the office trying to avoid stares. People acted like just because I was married to Michael Jackson everything was alright. They are wrong. We've got problems and were trying to solve them.

Sometimes I think; maybe I should have let Michael leave. But something kept telling me that we needed to work it out.

"Mr and Mrs. Jackson you're here on time." A short lady with silver hair and a clip bard in her hand greeted us. "I'm Mrs. Harrison." "Hi" We said in unison. It was the only time we were thinking the same thought."Follow me."

As we followed her down the hall I stared at Michael out of the corner of my eye. He didn't look happy at all. He had such a beautiful smile but it's been so long since I've seen it.

"So what seems to be the problem?" Mrs. Harrison asked after we were seated in her office.

He's gone all the time!

She ignores me!

He pays more attention to his job than me!

She doesn't try to spend time with me!

He wants 13 kids!

She doesn't want to have sex with me anymore!

WE CAN'T GET ALONG!!!!

We glared at each other and then looked at Mrs. Harrison.
She was vigorously scribbling on her note pad. She looked really confused.

"Okay, let's start with something easy." She said. "Can you remember the first time you met?" " Alica why don't you try remembering this." I nodded. The first time we met.

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1983 Motown 25

Alica's POV
I remember getting up to leave after the show. I was with my best friend Rhonda and that's when I ran into him.

"That was some show!" I said as we rose from are seats. "Yes it was and did you see Michael?" Rhonda asked. "That is one fine man!!" "I wouldn't mind riding the boogey with him." She said refering to a verse from his hit song "Rock With You."

"You are so naughty!" I said giving her a playful shove. "I know and I love it." She replied. I couldn't imagine being best friends with someone completely opposite of me.

We were just about to open the door when it swung open and hit me right in the face. And hard. The last thing I saw was his face peeking behind the door.

Michael's POV

"I'm so sorry!" I said. I looked at the beautiful girl lying there. She looked familiar. I think she as a supermodel from a magazine. A knot was forming on her head. How could I be so careless?

"Hey I'm Rhonda." Another girl who was standing there. "Hi Rhonda." I replied. I was so embarrased. Another pretty girl just witnessed me knock out another girl.

"Do you know her?" I asked. "Yeah she's my best friend." She replied. "Well what's her name?" I asked. "Alica." She replied. Why am I asking her name when I just knocked her out?

"Look, if you don't mind I think I need to take your friend with me." I said. "I only want to see if she's okay. "Fine. Rhonda replied. "And here's my number." With that she left and I picked Alica up bridal style.Little did I know I'd pick her up like that again in the future.

Alica's POV

"Alica, Alica." I heard a soothing voice say. I opened my eyes. My head was pounding. Where am I? I was in a huge bed.I looked at the face. Then I looked around the room. How in the hell did I get in Michael Jackson's bedroom?

"Alica are you alright?" He ask. "Sure." I replied "My head is just hurting really bad. "May I have an asprin?"

"Sure." He says as he leaves and goes to his bathroom. I could hear all kinds of medicine bottles falling only making my head ache worse. To say he was so coordinated on stage he was really clumsy in every day life.

"He's your asprin." He said returning with two white pills. He smiled at me and blushed then went to a mini fridge and handed me a bottle of water. I never noticed how handsome he was. Rhonda was right. He was real fine.

"What happened again?" I asked as I sipped my water. "I carelessly knocked you out with one of the doors in the auditorium." "I'm sorry." "Your okay." I said. "Does your mother know there's a girl in your bed?" I asked playfully. "Yes and no." He replied. I smiled at him. He was really handsome and so sweet.

"Could you please take me home now?" I asked getting out of bed. I was still in my gold dress I wore to the show. "Sure but would you like to have dinner with me Saturday?
"Sure; you deserve it." I said with a smile. That was the start of what used to be a beautiful relationship.

Michael's POV

Mrs. Harrison told us that we needed to try to do something together today after counseling. Alica and I haven't done anything together in so long I don't even remember the last thing we did together.

I think it was bowling?
Nope that couldn't be it. Alica hates breaking her nails.

Was it swimming?
Nope. Alica hasn't been swiming since she was 12.

Could it have been sex?
Hell no. That hasn't happened in forever.

Well whatever it was hopefully we can get along while were doing whatever we're going to do.

We got home. We said nothing to each other. This is going to be harder than I thought.

"What did you think of counseling today?" I asked once we were settled on the sofa. "It was fine." She replied. I'm surprised she was talking to me so calmly. "It was kind of fun going down memory lane." Wow. Is counseling already taking effect?

"Well what should we do?" I asked. "Anything you want to do Jackson." She replies. It just kills me when she calls me Jackson. I'm Michael! "Why don't we watch a movie?" I suggested.

"Sure you can pick it." She replies nonchalantly. How can she be so caviler? She's the one that suggested counseling and now she's just going to be all caviler?! You see what I go through?!? I try so hard to cope with her!!

I just simply put in Peter Pan. We used to watch this all the time together. I was her Peter Pan and she was my Tinkerbell. Now it seems were just crap to each other.

We sat there in silence. She sat closer to me than she had in a while. After a while she just got up and left. I just don't understand her ways. Earlier today she wanted to work things out and now she could care less.

Alica's POV

Michael seemed annoyed with me this morning. I don't know what I did but I'm so used to getting annoyed by him. He didn't even want to go to counseling today. He can be such a jerk sometimes.

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"Okay, were going to try an something." Mrs. Harrison said. "I hope you two can handle this well" "I really hope we can handle it well too." I said as I shot Michael a cold glare. He glared back at me.

"I want you two to acknowledge the things you don't like about each other." "This is gonna be wonderful." he muttered. "Alica you start."

"Gladly." I replied with a smirk.

"What I HATE about you is how your so caught up in your work you don't even notice me!"

"What I hate about you is that your so selfish!"

"What I hate about you is your bad habit of never closing the milk carton!"

"What I hate about you is that your so uptight!"

"I hate everything about you!"

"Likewise!"

"Well, that went a little bit better than I expected." Mrs. Harrison said. "But you'll never work this out by hating each other." "We know." We said in unison. "Please try to get along today."

Mrs. Harrison has no idea what I have to put up with!

Alica's POV

Well we tried. It went pretty well but it didn't stop Michael from being the jerk he is.

When he went to get a glass of milk today he didn't close the carton. Didn't I already say that was one of the things I didn't like about him!?!?

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"Hurry up in there!" I shouted. I was waiting on Michael to get out of the shower. He's been in there over 5 minuets. I suppose he'll use up all the hot water next!


I heard the shower head turn off. He probably did use all the hot water so I'll just continue reading until it get's warm.

"It's all yours." He said. I looked up from my book and there he was looking sexier than ever. His hair was damp and beads of water clung to his chest. I couldn't say anything. He looked so delicious. What was there to say?

Michael and I haven't had sex in forever. I really don't remember the last time. And he knows that and now he's using it against me. I want him sooo badly.

"I'm w-waiting until it gets warm." I managed to say. "Okay." He said with a devious grin on his face. Smart-ass.

I couldn't help but watch him as he when to the drawer. Now he had me aroused. He's such a jerk.

And he knows I was watching his every move and he was loving it. Now he's just going to tease me about it.

"Opps dropped my towel." He said deviously as if fell around his ankles. HE FLASHED ME. HE FLASHED ME!

I couldn't help but keep staring at him. Just staring at him like that made me realize how much I missed that part of my life. But at the same time I felt so embarrassed.

"I'm out of here!" I said as I snapped out of my trance. He giggled as he picked up his towel and tied back around his waist.

"You know, you're a jerk!" I said
"I know!" He replied. "Maybe you'll add that to your list of the things you hate about me. He said sarcastically.
I just rolled my eyes and went into the bathroom.

Michael's POV

Today is our anniversary. I know, those words sound like a death sentence. I'm just hoping we can get along today.



Alica's POV

I woke up this morning and looked at the calender. Oh God. Today is our anniversary. I still remember the day Michael and I got married. It was so beautiful and one of the best days of my life.
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1985
"You look so beautiful honey." Mother says to me as she puts on my wedding veil. Tears are in her eyes. I smile really big. I was smiling so much my cheeks could have burst.

"Michael is surly marrying a beautiful young lady." Ms. Kathrine said. "Thank you so much." I said. I was so happy. Today was the day that I would become Mrs. Michael Joseph Jackson.

"Damn Alica you look beautiful." Rhonda says. "Michael gonna be all over you tonight." I blushed. Rhonda always had a way of embarrassing me. "Your brother's waiting on you." My big brother was walking me down the aisle. When I was young my parents got a divorce and my father died. My brother and I were so close that he wanted to give me away.

"If you ever have any problems let me know." My brother Kendrick says as he walks me down the aisle. "Just because my little sister is getting married to an international superstar doesn't mean she doesn't need her big bro." "I will." I said as I got in place next to Michael.

"You look so beautiful." Michael says. "You look handsome yourself." I say with a smile.

The Priest said what he had to say and now it was time for vows.

"Alica would you start us off by reciting your vows?" I nodded and took a deep breath.

"Michael, I knew that you were the one for me when I thought more of you than myself." "When I prayed for you more than myself." "I mean, the first night we met no matter how badly my head hurt I still thought about you all night."

The room was filled with little giggles from friends and family who knew the story of how we met.

"I promise to love and cherish every moment I have with you." "You are the only one for me Michael and I love you more than life it's self. Michael smiled at me. I looked out of the corner of my eye at Mother. She was silently wiping tears away from her face.

"Michael will you proceed with the vows." Michael nodded and Randy handed him a mic. Music started to fill the room.

Sun comes up on this new morning

Shifting shadows, a song bird sings

And if these words could keep you happy

I'd do anything

And if you feel alone, I'll be your shoulder

With a tender touch you know so well

Somebody once said it's the soul that matters

Baby who can really tell

When two hearts belong so well?

And maybe the wall will tumble

And the sun my refuse to shine

But when I say I love you

Baby you gotta know that's for all time

Baby you gotta know that's for all time
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My eyes were filled with tears. It was one of the most beautiful things he every said to me. Did he really mean it?
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Moon shines down on this good evening

One warm kiss in the cold night air

For this good love I'm recieving

I'd go anywhere

Just as long as you were there

Maybe the walls will crumble

And the may refuse to shine

When I say I love you

Baby you gotta know that's for all time

Baby you gotta know that's for all time

Maybe the walls will crumble

And the sun may refuse to shine

When I say I need you

Baby you gotta know that's for all time

Say that you'll never go that's for all time

Baby you gotta know that's for all time

Baby you gotta know that's for all time.

When he was finished singing it looked like everyone was crying. It was such and emotional moment.

He slipped the ring on my finger and I did the same for his finger.We said I do and Michael kissed me; his bride as the sun set behind us.

It was such a beautiful day. I don't know why I regret it sometimes.


Micahel's POV

I walked past the bedroom. Alica was awake. She sat with her knees up to her chin and her face burried in her knees. Was she crying? I stopped and peeked my head in the door.

"Are you okay?" I asked with concern. She just looked at me. "Happy Anniversary." She said through tears. I came and sat next to her on the bed. "Look, I haven't given up yet." I said. "I still want to make this right."

"Me too." She said still teary eyed. We sat in silence as she continued to weep. "Can I hold you?" I asked. I didn't want to sounds so forward but technically she was still my wife.

"Please." She said. I wrapped my arms around her and started to hum a familiar tune. "Always and Forever" by Heatewave. It was the song that we first slow danced to and danced to at our wedding.

This was the only touching moment we've had in so long. That day I knew that we were capable of working it out.

Alica's POV

So ever since that day we started trying. I could tell Michael was a little grouchy and annoyed today. Maybe he's over worked. I knew that it wasn't going to be that easy but we were going to work at it.

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"Today I want you two to take a simple test." Mrs. Harrison said. I nodded and looked over at Michael. He appeared to be nodding off.

"Michael pay attention!" I said jabbing him with my elbow. He looked up at me and gave me this cold glare. Like I said, where going to have to work on it.

"Have you ever heard of the game of trust?" Mrs. Harrison asked. "Isn't that when one person falls back and you have to catch them." Michael asked "Yes." She simply replied

"Let's do it then." I said standing up. "Okay Alica, just close your eyes and put your trust in Michael's arms." I closed my eyes and relaxed. I was more than positive Michael would catch me.

I'm going back. Hey, is that a pager I hear?

A few minuets later I'm flat on the floor. Michael is busy playing with his pager. What the hell?!?!

"It's 5 minuets till filming time." He says refering to the filming of his music video "The way you make me feel." "It's one second to what the hell is wrong with you?!? time! I reply. "What the hell is wrong with you?!?!"

"You were supposed to catch me!!!" I say sitting up. "I'm sorry but this is an important call." Michael says. "I've got to be on set in 4 minuets." "Do you mind if I take the car? "I'm sure you don't want to come."

In a way Michael was right.

I really didn't into his work. I actually kind of hated it because he was so caught up in it.

I really don't know what he actually does. I mean, I had no idea the plot of the music video and better yet who the video girl was. That was something I was dying to know.

"Why not." I said even though I didn't want to. "Great I'll have a limo pick you up." "Later Mrs. Harrison." He says as he puts on his shades. He just left me there on the floor. JERK!!

If I couldn't trust Michael to catch me when I fall then how am I supposed to trust him with big things?!?!

Michael's POV

I arrived on the set 5 minuets late. I need to get dressed and get on set. Just because I'm Michael Jackson doesn't mean I can waste people's valuable time.

"Michael your late!!!" A familiar voice shouts. I turn around to face Frank, my manager.He doesn't look too happy.

"I'm sorry Frank I had to get the car from my wife." I said. "Nother counseling session?" He asked. I nodded. He sighs. "Well you better get out there." He says as he hands me my outfit. "Don't worry I'll be out in a jiff." I said as I turned to walk to my trailer.

"Michael your here." Another familiar voice says. My beautiful video girl falls in step with me.

There she was in that short, tight, black dress that hugged her thin frame.

Tatiana Yvonne was hand picked by me out of 200 girls. She was cutting edge beautiful. If I were single or weren't trying to work things out with Alica I wouldn't mind.......

"Michael everyone is waiting on you." "You better get out there." She says shattering my dirty thoughts. "I know." I replied with a smile. "I wish my trailer wasn't so far down." "You could always use mine." She says sweetly. "It's right here." I was actually pondering this. "I don't think that's a good idea." To be or not to be...

"Fine." It is more convenient. The question is though, is it more convenient or do I just want to be in her trailer? "I was going to get something, I promise I won't peek." She says sweetly.



I stepped into her trailer and she didn't follow too far behind. I was having second thoughts about this. "Could you close the blinds." I asked. "Of course." I start to unbutton my shirt. This just doesn't feel right.

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"Hey Mike can I talk to you for a second?" Frank says after rehersal. "Sure what's up?" I say as I dab my face with a towel. " You don't think anybody saw you did you?" I was confused.

"Saw me doing what." "I saw you going into that Tatiana girl's trailer." "I'm telling you now Mike; she's bad news." I just looked at him. "Look Frank I was just changing my clothes." "It's not like we did anything." "I have too much class for that." "Do you really think I'd want to have sex in a trailer?" I asked.

"Well I'm just warning you before you ruin things for you and Alica." "I'd hate to see you two not make it." "Sure thing." I said. "I'm audi." "Come back tomorrow on time." Frank calls after me. "Will do!"

Was I letting temptation get in the way?

Alica's POV

I came to conclusions that Michael might be over worked. So I decided to something for him that I haven't done in a while. Make Dinner. It's the least I could do.

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I sat at the table. Waiting on Michael.

Upon the table is a spread of Mexican; Michael's favorite. He should be pretty happy when he get's here. I'm just waiting............

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The door slams shut and my head pops up. I must have fallen asleep. "Jackson, where have you been?" I ask. Okay, so bad habits are hard to break.

He rolls his eyes at me. "I was out." He simply says. "Okay." I reply. That's odd. It's not like Michael to go out.

"Well are you hungry?" I asked "I actually cooked today." He looks at the table of food then at me. "Nope." He replied. "I'm not in the mood for Mexican." Great.

"Well what am I supposed to do with all this?" I asked. "Maybe you should eat it." He suggest. What's his problem?!!?

"Gosh Michael!" I say. "I go through all this trouble just to do something nice for you and you at like a jerk!" "Gosh!" "There's just no getting through to you!!"

Gosh! You can't do anything for this man! He's impossible!! One minuet he's hot the next he's cold. What I'm I supposed to do with him?!?!


Silly of me to take the time!!!!!!!

Michael's POV

So Alica is mad at me again. I must be the biggest asshole in the world to her. When is ever going to get past this attitude she has toward me?!?!

Frank called and told me that they wanted me to do an autobiography. I said lets go for it. He gave me a list of editors but I said I would find one, if only I can get her to confirm.

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I got home and she was there too. I need to ask the question but I don't want to be so forward.

"Hi." I greeted her once I got in the door. "Hi." She said dryly. "Um, you know they want me to write an autobiography." I said trying to get to the question.

"Why are you telling me this?" She asked. "I just thought I'd have a conversation with you." She stared at me. I hope she's buying it.

"So you didn't want to eat the food that I went out of my way to make for you but now you want to talk?" "I don't get you Michael." She called me Michael!

"Look, I need you to edit my autobiography." I just boldly stated. "What?" She asked. "It would mean the world to me." I said. "I know you used to write a lot and you've really got a way with words." "Please, edit for me?" I gave puppy dog eyes.

"I'll think about it." She simply says.

I couldn't stop thinking about what Michael asked me.

I mean I just don't get it. One moment he's cold toward me and the next he's begging for my help. Should I help him or should I let him crash and burn? Decisions, Decisions.
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I couldn't make up my mind so I decided to get some advice from the first person I thought of- Rhonda
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"I think you should do it." Rhonda says. "I mean, it's obvious he still wants you." "He asked for your help." "I mean hello, If he didn't want you he wouldn't have asked for your help. "He wants to bond with you Alica."


"You really think so?" I asked as I curled my feet up on the sofa. "Sure he does." She replied. "Sometimes men have ways of telling you something that they don't want to say flat out." "He doesn't want to be forward with you." "If you let him crash and burn you're ruining your chances of bonding with him."

AS IF!!!!!!

A light clicked on in my brain. Rhonda is totally right. Michael still wants me! Michael wants to bond with me! How could I have not figured this out in the first place?!!? How could I have been so; clueless?!?

As much as I wanted him to crash and burn I can't say no. I'm clueless no more!

Michael's POV

I'm still waiting on Alica's answer. It takes her forever to decide on things. I really hope she says yes.

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I got home and there she is, ironing my shirts in the living room. I wonder if she'll say yes.

"Hey." I said as I plopped down on the sofa. It's been really weird talking to her lately because it's like a cloud of silence has filled our home.

"Hi." She replies not looking up from the ironing board. There it is again. That cloud of silence.

"Have you made your decision yet?" I asked. She looks up at me. "Yes." She simply said

I stare at her with big eyes that say; I'm waiting. "I said yes didn't I?" She asked. That woman can read me like a book.

"Wait, did you just say yes?" "Yes, Yes, Yes!" She says. "You really mean it?" I asked. I cannot believe what the ears are hearing. "Gosh Michael are you hard of hearing??" "I said yes."

By now I'm up on my feet standing right in front of her. Maybe a little to close than she wanted me to be.

"This is what you wanted Michael." "I'll do it." She says. Then she seductively grabs me by the collar.

"Just know I know your asking me because you want to bond with me." She says. "You won't admit it but you know it's true." Then she walks away.

She was right. I did want to bond with her. That was all I ever wanted.

Alica's POV

Michael and I are making progress. I never thought I would live to see the day we start to get along.

We've just started to work on the autobiography. I'm telling you, It's like I'm getting to know Michael all over again. We're working on the first chapter.

Everyday Michael writes something and I read it to him and if he wants to change something he lets me know

So tonight we're sitting on the bed and I'm reading a portion of the first chapter out loud.

"I used to stand in the wings of this one place and watch a lady whose name was Mary Rose." I read. Wait a minuet! "Hey you never watched me strip!" I said as I hit him with one of the pillows.

Michael smiles deviously. "You never asked me to watch you strip." "Better yet you never gave me a strip piece!" He replies as he hits me back playfully with one of the pillows.

We were having a moment!

"You are so going to get!" I say hitting him again and softly pushing him of the bed. I laugh in spite of myself.
He's still on the floor. Is he okay?

"Michael." I say in a sing song voice as I lean my head over the edge if the bed. Before I know it there's a soft fluffy pillow right in my face.

"Did you really think I was going to let you get away with that?" He asked giving me a "seriously?" look.

"Hey that's cheating!" I say as I smack him upside the head with my pillow. "Hey easy on the noggin!" He shouts as he climbs back on the bed.

Lets just say we spent 30 minuets giggling and hitting each other with feather stuffed pillows.

After 30 minuets we're lying on the floor covered and surrounded by feathers laughing till our sides hurt.

"I'm exhausted." Michael says but he smiles while he's saying it. "Me too." I say catching my breath. "Now you can't say that wasn't fun." "Wasn't better than sex." Michael replies. We get silent.

"Okay, now it just got weird." I say. We just laugh some more. "We can finish this up tomorrow." I say getting up from the floor and extending my hand to help Michael up.

"This pillow fight or the manuscript?" Michael ask raising an eyebrow. "The manuscript silly." I reply.

We might have not slept on very fluffy pillows that night but it was worth it.

Michael's POV

I have to admit, Alica and I are really making progress. It almost seems like old times again. I knew it was a good idea to have her edit for me. Boy am I smart!
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Alica's POV

I woke up with a smile on my face reminiscing on the pillow fight we had last night. We were really making progress. Things seemed to be getting back to normal.

It was exciting but at the same time kind of scary. I just didn't want to get my hopes up too high and get my heart stopped to death.

I got out of bed and made a steaming cup of tea. Michael probably left already so maybe I'll go out to day.

"Penny for your thoughts." A voice says shattering my thoughts. I'm startled and spill the very very hot tea on my legs and the mug shatters.

"Michael you startled me!" I say. "I thought you we're on your way to work?" He smiles. "I was but I thought I say good morning before I left."

"Ow!" I exclaim as I look down at my soaked pajama pants. The pain is kicking in. "Did you burn yourself?" Michael asked. I nodded. "Let me see." He says.

"Michael I'm fine." I say. "You're not fine." "Lemme see!" Michael always has a way of knowing when something was wrong with me. He knows me all too well.

Reluctantly I lifted my pants leg . There was a big red burn that covered most of my leg. I was pretty bad

"Let's go." He says. "What do you mean lets go." "You have to go." "Look, I'm my own boss so their just going to have to wait." He said. "I'm taking you to the emergency room." "But why?" I asked.

"Because I care about you."

Alica's POV

I was so sweet of Michael to miss work today just to take care of me.

He said he cared about me. So it wasn't an "I love you" But I'm sure he's getting there. We're getting there.

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"That tickles!" I said as I was lying on the bed and Michael rubbed an ointment the doctor prescribed on my burned leg. He smiles at me. "Sit still." He says. "Okay Dr. Jackson." I reply. He smiles as he puts the gauze and bandage on my leg. He's so gentle and soft.

His touch is amazing.

"You're all good to go." He says pulling down my pant leg. "Thank you." "I say. "You didn't have to miss work just for me." "I told you don't worry about it." He says. "Right now this PYT needs all the TLC she can get."

Okay that was kind of weird. Is it going to take sex to make things not so weird between us?!?

"But really Michael, thank you." "Did I ever tell you you have nice legs?" He asked raising an eyebrow. "Nope, not until now." I said blushing.

I really do believe were getting back to I love you. As a matter of fact I remember the first time Michael said he loved me.
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Fall 1983

"No peeking." Michael says playfully as he takes my hand and guides me to an unknown place. "Where are we Michael?" I ask tempted to snatch the blind fold off and spoil his surprise. "I don't like blind folds." "Could you hold in there a little longer Babe?" "We're almost there." "Sure thing." I reply.

A few minuets later Michael takes the blind fold off of me. We're at a vast field with absolute best view of the stars. Michael knows how much I love dusk.

"Tada!" He says. "It's beautiful Michael." I say. "The stars are so bright from here." "They're so beautiful."

"Almost as beautiful as you." He says. Then he takes a black and white checkered blanket and spreads it on the ground. "Have a seat."

For the next hour or so we lye under the stars and talk about any and everything on our minds.

"Alica, I have something important to tell you." He speaks. "Okay." I say preparing for the worst.

"I just can't stop thinking about you." "I mean it's like your every where." "Even in my dreams." I smile. "I just wanted to say; I-I love you." I couldn't believe it. He actually said he loved me. I smiled. "I love you too Michael." She said.

"I was hoping you'd say that." He said with the biggest grin on his face. "I love you more though." "Nope I love you more." I say. "No I love you-" I silenced him with a passionate kiss.

That's what it was "I love you" used to be like for me and I really think we can work our way back to that.

Michael's POV

Today was the first day we went back to Mrs. Harrison after a while. We hadn't been going to her a lot lately because I've been busy lately.

But I'm glad about that because we've been able to work it out ourselves instead of getting answers from a marriage counselor.

We're almost there.

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"Very good!" Mrs. Harrison says as she listens to us telling her about all the progress we've made. "You two have really matured since the first time we met."

I flash Alica a smile. She winks at me.

"That's why I think you'll be able to handle this test." She continues. "We can handle anything." Alica says. "Good!" Mrs. Harrison says as she fumbles in her desk drawer. "Then you can handle this." She says as she hands something to both of us.

"Two tickets to the Virgin Islands?" I ask. "That's where we had our honeymoon." Alica says. Trust me; I'll never forget that!

"I know." Mrs. Harrison says.

"Thar's why you'll be spending a whole week there rekindleing your romance and actually see if you two are really getting along as you say you are."

"I want to make sure you two not only survive but thrive." "Hope you have fun."

All I can say is; Virgin Islands here we come.

Alica's POV

It was so nice for Mrs. Harrison to give us a holiday. It would be so nice just to have a holiday. This is like a celebration for Michael and I.

We're almost there.

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"Please fasten your seat belts and enjoy the ride." The flight attendant says before the plane takes off. Michael and I are ridding private first class to avoid all the hupla.

I really hope nothing goes wrong on our holiday.

As the plane slowly lifs off I look over at Michael. He looks nervous. I know planes are not his thing but it's the only way we're going to get there.

"Hey you okay?" I ask. "Yeah, just a little nervous." He replies. "Don't worry." "Nothing's going to happen." "I've been flying since I was months old, if flying were harmful would I be here with you now?"

He smiled at me. I took hold of his hand. It was the first time we held hands in so long. It felt wonderful.

"I can't wait until we get there." He says. "Me too." I reply. It was so amazing to me how we had gone from hating each other and almost getting a divorce to where we are now. I couldn't describe it but it was wonderful.

Michael's POV

Where half way there and Alica is asleep with her head on my shoulder. Good. That gives me time to think of how to put my plan into action.

We're on a romantic get away. It's the perfect time.

But; I'm not going to do it on the first night. That totally wouldn't be appropriate. At least not for the first night. Maybe I'll put it off for the last night.

"Are we there yet?" She sleepily asks shattering my train of thought. "Almost." I reply as I more a stray lock of hair away from her beautiful face. "Just a few more hours.She sleepily smiled.

I just find it amazing how we went from hating each other to where we are now. It's really amazing.

In a few more days she'll be the happiest girl in the world.

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Alica's POV

"Michael it's just as beautiful as I remember" I exclaimed as we got off the plane. "Yep, It hasn't changed a bit." He replied. "What should we do first?" Michael ask as the bodygaurds take our luggage away. "Duh, Site seeing!" I say."Michael puts on his shades. "Let's go then." He says taking my hand.

I knew it! We were getting back to I love you!

Alica's POV

"Okay, so were going to go one time around and back." Michael instructs as he reves up his jet ski. I'd never been jet skiing but it looked so fun.

"Okay Mr. Dangerous, Whatever you say." I replied letting my hair down. "Okay, on your mark get set; GO!" I took off.

This was so fun! The adrenaline was rushing though my veins. I wasn't the kind of girl who loved to try new things but this was worth it.

Michael was far behind me. I left him in the dust. I smiled as the mist from the water hit my face.

"HEY!!" I hear him yell. "MINE DIED, COULD I HOP ON YOURS?" "NO PROB" I yell back as I turn around. My hair blowing in the wind.

"It could have sucked up something." He says when I get there. "Hop on." I say patting the back of the jet ski.

He moves his closer so he can hop on mine, he extends is long leg and then BAM! Right in the face.

I'm I going to spend the rest of my life getting knocked out by this man?

Michael's POV

"Alica where'd you go?" I ask as I look around for her. Then I see her wildly flapping her arms in the water. Did I knock her out?

Yep.

Damn! When am I going to stop being so clumsy off stage?

Alica's POV

"Alica, Alica." I heard a melodious voice say. I opened my eyes to see Michael leaning over me. My vision was blurred. I blinked.

"What happened?" I asked. I could only remember half of what happened. When Michael knocked me out he got me good. That man is so damn accident prone.

"Knocked you off of the Jet ski." He replies as he places a ice pack on my head. "The swelling's going down." He said. "I'm so sorry."

I smiled. "It's okay, It's kind of sweet." "Like the first time we met." He smiles and leans in closer.
"You're right." he says.

I was more than positive he was going to kiss me. Why is he hesitating? Kiss me! Kiss me!

"Are you coming to diner?" He asks. Who cares about dinner when your lips could be getting it on with mine?!?! "Nope, I'm not hungry." I reply.

"Great I've got to take care of something." He says looking at the clock on the wall of our suite. "Are you going to be okay here by yourself?" He ask. "Yes, I'll just relax." He smiled. "That's my girl, page me if you need me."

I smiled and nodded but at the same time I couldn't help but wonder what he was up too. I grabbed the remote and looked at tv.

I got bored after watching reruns of The Jetsons so I just stared at the wall. After a few minuets I got a message from Michael on my pager.

*Meet me at the deck. I've got a surprise.
Mike.*

I smiled. And relied back to him.

*No more Jet skiing, right?
Alica*

A few seconds later he replied.

* Hee Hee.No more Jet skiing.
PS. Wear a pretty dress*

I smiled. He wants we to wear a pretty dress. Interesting.

*You got it.*

I pressed send and closed my pager. Now what's a girl to wear for the occasion?

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I smiled as I made my way to the dock. Whatever Michael had planned I'm sure it was spectacular. I had on one of the prettiest dresses I had.

Strapless, deep passionate red(Michael's favorite color) that was straight with rhinestones around the waist. It was classy, not too short, not too long ; just right. I wanted to look like the perfect balance of sweet and sexy and not be too dressy.

Hey, who's the dude struggling to row that boat? As he got closer I noticed the face. It was a face I knew, A face I had kissed. I couldn't help but laugh to myself as I saw Michael struggling to row the boat. he looked so cute. I also couldn't help but feel like the luckiest girl in the world. How many women to you know who's husband would row a boat for them?

Are the crickets chirping for ya yet?!?

I thought so!

"Michael, what a surprise!" I exclaim as he arrives at the dock. I couldn't stop blushing.

"Come, sail away with me." He says with a smile as he extends his hand.Michael is so sensual and romantic. He comes up with the most romantic things in the world. No wonder why so many women dream of him.

I take it and carefully step into he boat. "Don't worry I've got you." He says tightly holding my hand.

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"Michael this is so romantic." I say. No one else is out here. Just he and I under the milky twilight. "I was hoping you'd say that." He said with a smile that said: "I'm the man."

"Look I wanted to talk with you." He says rowing harder. I could tell he was getting tired but he'll never admit to it. "I'm all ears." I say pushing my beachy waves from my face. "I want to fall with you again." he says "Like we did when we first met."

I smile. "Oh Michael, don't you know?" "We're already falling again." "I mean look at us, if we weren't we wouldn't be here right now."

He looks me deep into the eyes. "Your right." he says "I think we did an reanactment slightly similar to that today." I giggle. We're silent.

Kiss me man! Kiss me!!

Michael's POV

Kiss me woman! Kiss me!!

Alica's POV

I look out into the vast ocean and then I look at Michael. He gives me a look. I lean over to kiss him and then.... The boat tips over.

"Dang not again!" Michael says as he pops up at the surface and pushed his damp hair out of the way. "It's like were prone for accidents." "I'm actually starting to like it." I say as I try my best to stay on the surface.

We shared a laugh and leaned in once again. This time our kiss was successful. Tongue and all.

Michael's POV

I nervously fidget as I wait for Alica at the dock. No more boat rides, no more jet skiing. Just a romantic dinner for two and an offer she can't refuse.

She should be here any minuet now.

Alica's POV

I smile as I take one last look at myself in the mirror. When I woke up this morning there was the most beautiful gown i had ever laid eyes on was on the bed. Attached to it was a note from Michael saying he wanted me to wear it tonight and to meet him at the dock.

I wonder what he had planned this time. I applied my lipstick and left the suite. Boy was I in for the night of my life.

When I got to the deck there was Michael siting at a small table with food, wine and candles. He is so romantic.

"Have a seat." He says as he pulls out my chair for me. I give him a peck on the cheek and take a seat.

I could tell Michael had something really special planned because he was fidgeting through out the whole dinner. I wonder what's up?


"Alica I have something to say." He says after dinner. "I'll listen to anything so have to say." I said. Okay here it goes.

"Alica, I know we've had our ups and downs and I know I've been a jerk a lot but I'm willing to start all over again and be the best husband I can be." I smile. He stands up and get on one knee. "That's why I ask you to be my wife." "Again."

Wow. There's nothing I can say. It's a total eclipse of the heart.

Alica's POV

I couldn't find the words to express how I was feeling right now. He proposed; again. That was so sweet.

He was willing to start all over again.He was willing to better himself. There's nothing I can do. It's a total eclipse of the heart. I couldn't deny him. Besides I'm willing to start over and better myself too.

"Well, I can't stay on one knee forever." He says slapping me back into reality. I smile.

Yes!

He quickly stands up and hugs me tightly. I lock fingers with his. "Michael I have something to say too." "Go ahead." He says looking me deep into the eyes.

"It's not just you." I say. "I've played and important in some of the problems we've had also." "But I'm also willing to start over and be the best wife I can be." "What you are for me I'll be for you." "Yes, I will be your wife. "Again."

"I love you Michael." I said. He kisses me passionately and then says; "I love you more." He said it. Those three little words I had been waiting on forever.

"Oh Michael." I moaned as he made his way down my neck. "I love you so much."

It was the perfect night for this. The silver moon was sparkling and the ocean breez blew through our hair as the ocean waves crashed behind us. And we just stood there; making out in the middle of it all.

And I think you know what happened after that. Two hearts in the beat of ecstasy . Euphoria all night long

Alica's POV

I woke up with the biggest smile on my face. Last night was mind blowing. Michael made me feel like a virgin all over again. I felt like dancing. I had to tell someone.

I looked over at Michael who was sleeping like an angel. He really meant what he said last night. I knew it. Michael is the kind of man who really get committed. He doesn't play around.

I got out of bed and put my robe on. Then I got out my pager so I could tell Rhonda the good news.

GUESS WHO'S GETTING MARRIED?!?!? I typed.

Alica It's 2 in the morning!!! And who?!?!

Sorry I'm on island time. Me that's who.

Lica, You're not supposed to get married until after 30 days of divorce.

Don't be ridiculous. I'm getting married to Michael. Again!

Again!

Yes again!!

He proposed last night.

What did he say?!?!?!

He said and I quote: I know we've had our ups and downs but I'm willing to change and be the best husband I can be. This is why I ask you to be my wife. Again

Awwww.That's so sweet!!! And you said yes!!

Yes I said yes and I told him what he is for me I'll be for him.

You two were made for each other!!!

What happened after that??

Well you know....................

OOO girl spill the details!!

Rhonda you know I'm not going to give you that information. We rocked the bed!!!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! I knew you had a freaky side.

You really are going to miss him when he leaves.

When he leaves, What do you mean when he leaves?!?

He going on tour Lica, I thought you knew.

He never told me that.

It's been all in the paper and on the news. His first leg in in Japan. How could you not know?

You know I don't look at tabliods for the sake of Mike.

Well don't let it get you down. Maybe he forgot to tell you.

I hope that's what it is.

I gotta go. Gotta go to work today.

Sure, bye.

How could Michael not tell me that?? I closed my pager and hopped in the shower. I still didn't get how Michael could just plan to go half way across the world.

"Morning beautiful." I hear a voice say as he wraps his long arms around my waist. "Morning." I say as he kisses my neck. I couldn't stop thinking about his plans to go halfway around the world as his hands moved lower. I had to confront him.

"Michael why didn't you tell me you were planning to tour?" He stopped kissing my neck and got silent. All you heard was the shower head. "Answer me Michael."

"Okay, that was when I was still being jerk." I folded my arms. "But I'd be more than happy if you would go with me." I looked at him. "You want me to travel the world with you." He nodded "I need you by side."

"Your so cute when you beg." I said. "Fine, I'll go."

All I have to say is I'm going places.

Alica's POV

Things have really been going great for Michael and I. Anyone could have sworn we were newly-weds. I was so proud of us. We put our hearts on he line and made it right.

Everyone said I had a glow about me and a sparkle in my eyes. Happiness was making me glow and Michael was the sparkle in my eyes. I was so happy we got back to the way we were before; happily married and deeply in love. That's the way I wanted it to stay forever. We've got forever.

I had something else to glow about but that was another story.

I was so happy that I got back to My regular careers: Supermodel and author. Speaking of writing Michael and I are almost finished with the book. Just one more chapter. And now here we are; traveling around the world. Taking a plane to Japan.

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"I'm so excited Michael." I said as we stepped on the plane. "Me too." "To have you by my side, to hold you in my arms; that's all I want." He whispered in my ear. I smiled and giggled like a school girl.

Michael was the most sensual man ever to walk the earth. What could I say; I was a slave to his rhythm. I still wonder how I ended up with such a wonderful husband.

The smile faded when I saw her. That girl. She looked like she didn't belong there. She looked like she sat around; slept around. Who was she?!?!

"I saved you a seat Michael!!" She said. Patting an empty seat next to her. "Oh hey Tatiana." He replied. He knows her. "That's nice but I'm sitting with my wife." She quickly fixed her eyes on me. "Oh, that's your wife." She said in a "nothing to write home about" tone.

"Yep. That's my PYT." Michael said with a big smile on his face. "Who is she?" Was all I could blurt.

"Oh that's Tatiana, she's the video girl." "She just walks around the stage when I sing "The way you Make me feel." Michael explained.

"That's nice." I said trying to sound friendly. "I don't believe we've met." "I'm Alica." "Tatiana." she said dryly without expression.

I was a little nervous about going on tour with Michael. Part of it was because it was around the world and another part was because I was going with people I really didn't know.

I mean, I knew Michael better than any person on this plane but it was his staff I didn't know. I did know the security guards Malvo and Killmoves(He prefered we call him that due to the fact his moves could kill any threat.) But I didn't know the band.

They acted weird around me because I was Mrs. Jackson. They acted like I was an evil queen who could be head anyone they chose at any moment they chose. The room got tense when I entered. But I guess it's because they didn't know me.

"We better get to our seats." Michael said. "You ready babe?" "Sure." I replied. I faked one last smile at Tatiana. "Nice to meet you." I said. When Michael wasn't looking she rolled her eyes at me.

Who does she think she is?!? What did I ever do to her?!?! Oh, she wants to be startin something!

Alica's POV
This is war.



Michael came up to me and smiled mischievously. I wonder what he was up to.
"Would you like to come with me to my dressing room?"Michael asked. I knew exactly what he meant. I smiled and walked with him to his trailer. He closed the curtains and kissed me hungrily; his hands exploring my body.


About an hour later Tatiana barged in. She growled like a bull dog."Oh Tatiana I'm sorry.. we were just..."Michael said embarrassed."Doing what Michael?" she said. "What married people do of course. Why is any of your business? Why are you even in here?"I said coldy. Michael couldn't help but let out a smile. He always liked it when I was fiesty."For Your information I was coming to catch up on what me and Michael started last time in my trailer." she said. "What!?"Michael screamed. I got angry and my veins popped out."Your a jerk Michael! Go share yourself with that groupie but not with me!" I said pushing him off of me. I picked up my clothes and put them on.
"Wait I have no idea what she's talking about! I'm serious." Michael said.
"Then I'll go ask your manager!" I said.
"You don't have to do that." Michael said getting up.
"Sit down Jackson!"I said walking out the trailer.
Michael's POV
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Great Now I'm back to Jackson.

"What the heck is your problem Tatiana?"I said.
"Sorry. Its just I met her before and she was mean to me... so I wanted to crush her after what she did to me."she said.
"What did she do. I mean she's the sweetest woman I've ever known, it can't be so bad." I replied.

"She stole my boyfriend and then she turned my very own parents against me. So dancing was the way I got my life back. All my family hated me and loved her. She even got married to my boyfriend and then divorced him after a few years. Then she did that with my brother. I don't want to see you like that."Tatiana said with a tear rolling down her face. By this time I had but on my boxers and pants.
"Wow." was all I could say. This seriously changed the way I felt about Alica.

Alica Barged in. She was really angry, her eyes were red and her veins popped out and she was turned red.
"Oh so you call it CHANGING CLOTHES? Is that what you call it now? Or Is it ROLLING IN THE HAY? Am I Way too old that I don't know the new term for sex?" She screamed.

"Well your the heartbreaker you never told me you were married! I had to learn from Tatiana?"Michael said.
"When's the last time you read my biography Michael I was never married to anyone but you. Where the hell did she get that info?" She said with her voice lowering down.
"Well She told me that but where did my manager get ch-" Michael stopped
"Oh. I was changing clothes in Tatiana's room. That's it baby I promise. She was lying I am not kidding I love you. That's why we are renewing our vows again. Please forgive me."Michael said on his knees. " Your not getting off that easy Michael." Alica said.

YES MICHAEL! At least I was getting back to her now. But this time I had a plan to win her over. Tonight was the concert. I was going to serenade her with Lady In My Life right before we do The Way You Make Me Feel. My mother would be there tonight. And she LOVED Alica. As soon as she heard I screwed it up she would be angry. Ah, I love my mom. Alica sat down on the couch and watched TV. Later that night I began the concert and sang "Man In the Mirror" Alica and my mom were talking at the side of the stage where no one saw them but people on stage.

"I love Michael but this girl.." Alica said.

"I don't like her." Katherine said. Alica smiled.

"Michael looks so handsome out there." Alica said.
I'm so happy I can hear this.
"I'd like to invite the woman who is the reason why I wake up everyday with a smile on my face. Alica would you please come out here?"I asked turning to my side.

She blushed as she walked out in her tight black dress and black heels. I began to sing to her. The look on her face was a mix of tears of joy and love. I loved that face.


"I will show you, your the lady in my life." I finished off. She blushed. The girls in the crowd all said "Aaaw" and I could see some rolling their eyes out of jealousy. I got off of my knee and stood up and kissed her. All girls just screamed. Alica smiled widely and walked back stage.
"The way you make me feel" began. Tatiana came out sweaty and red with anger. She screamed and slapped me. She ran off stage. "BOO TATIANA! BOO TATIANA!" the crowd screamed. I could feel sweat all over of the embarrasment. I looked to the side and saw my manager motion "Go with it." I get what he meant so I kneeled down on both of my knees and covered my face. The music to "She's out of my life" began. I sang. My cheek burned but I hid it.

I finished the concert and walked backstage. Katherine was the only one there.
"Where's Alica?"Michael asked. Katherine grinned.
"Finishing some business." Katherine replied.
Alica came back with her hair messed up.

"I'm Sore." she said.
"From what." I asked
"I just beat up Tatiana."Alica said proudly.
I saw Tatiana limping out with a black eye and a box of her stuff.

I assumed she got fired.
I hugged Alica and My Mom.

Alica's POV

"You totally kicked ass!" Cheryl, one of Michael's best back up singers says as I'm walking back to Michael's dressing room. I smiled big. I really was a classy woman but when you messed with me you got it. My mother taught me how to fight. N.O style.

"I guess I did." I said. I was feeling really dizzy. "It's about time somebody kicked her ass." I really don't feel well. A few minuets later I was crashing to the ground.

Michael's POV

"Michael,Michael need you now!!!!" Cheryl says as she nearly slides through the room. "What, What!" I said. I was just taking a break after the show. I was sweaty and tired. What now.

"Alica just fainted!" She said. "I coming!" I said as I quickly stood up. Something must be terribly wrong.

Alica's POV

"Alica, Alica." I opened my eyes. I'm lying on the same sofa that Michael and I had a little"Afternoon delight" on in his dressing room. Michael, Cheryl and Frank are all huddled around me. "Are you okay?" Michael asked. "Tatiana didn't hurt you, did she?" I shook my head.

"You should be asking her that." I said. "Where's your mother?" I asked. "She took a plane back home." He replied.

"Look about the whole Tatiana thing, I'm sorry." "I shouldn't have hired her." I smiled. "It's okay." "If you think it's okay to change in another woman's dressing room it's okay by me."

"Really?!?" Everyone asked in unison

"NO!!" I shouted. I grabbed Michael by the shirt so his face was close to mine. "And if that happens again somebody's getting stabbed."

"Is there anything you need." He ask. I knew exactly what I needed now. "Can someone please get me some chocolate cheesecake?" Everyone looked at me crazy. "Um, I'll see what's on the table." Michael replied with a stare.

Everyone left the room.

Michael's POV

"That's odd." "One minuet she faints then the next she wants chocolate cheesecake." I said to Cheryl. "Michael it's obvious." She says as she falls in step next to me. "What's obvious?"

"She's pregnant Michael."

Michael's POV

Could it really be true? If Alica were pregnant she would have told me. It could be true though. We have been REALLY active a lot lately and we didn't use condoms. The only way I would find out is if I asked.


"I'm back." I said in a sing, song voice as I arrived back in the dressing room. "Yay chocolate cheesecake!!" She said as she sits up on the sofa. I smiled as I sat down next to her.

"Babe is there something you need to tell me?" I asked. She was chowing down and has chocolate all over her mouth. I couldn't help but crack a smile. "What do you mean is there something I need to tell you?" She asked innocently. This is going to be harder than I thought.

"Is something lets say, not so normal going on with you?" I said. "No."She replied.

"No body changes?" "Nope, you would know." She said with a big smile. She has a point.

Okay so now I'm going to have to pry.
I moved closer to her. She wipes her mouth with a napkin and sat her plate aside. She touches my face.

"You were really great out there tonight" She says. I smile."You looked amazing." I replied moving my hand up her thigh. She moans and runs her finger through my hair. Now I've got her where I want her

Alica's POV

He's totally running game on me. He really wants to know.Should I tell him now? But I had a much better way of telling him planed. Well better now than late.

Michael's POV

"Okay, Alica are you pregnant?" I asked straight forward. She stares at me and smiles. "What if I said yes?" She ask with a smile. "Then I'd be the happiest man on earth." I replied. "Then yes, really, I'm pregnant."

I had the biggest smile on my face.

"I wanted to tell you differently but never now than never." "I don't care how you tell me babe." "I'm just so happy to be having a child with you." I said and kissed her forehead. She smiled. "Me too."

Things just couldn't get better.

Alica's POV

We're back in America and today we're going to the doctor to check up on the baby!! Michael and I are so excited.

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Since I was married to the most popular man on earth we had a private doctor. Michael avoided hupla every chance he got.

"Are you nervous?" I asked as him as we waited on Mr. Haas; our private doctor. "A little." He admitted. "It's just an ultrasound. " I said. "We're only checking on the baby, our baby." He smiled as leaned over to kiss me.

"Am I interrupting something?" A manly voice asked.
"Oh, um.... Doctor Haas, good to see you." I said; my cheeks burning with embarassment.
"Come on back."
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"It tickles." I said as Dr. Haas rubbed the blue, cold gel on my stomach. Michael had a: "Get yo hands off my wife's stomach!!!!" look on his face. I smiled and gave his hand a squeeze.

We waited in anticipation as the image popped up on the screen. "I don't see anything." Michael said as he studied the screen. "Oh there's something." Dr. Haas replied as he moved the wand across my stomach.

"Three of them."

"THREE!!!!!" Michael and I shouted in unison, our eyes as big as owls. "Yep, 3 tiny little heartbeats." He said pointing to the screen. He was right.

"Congratulations Mr.& Mrs Jackson."


"You're having triplets."

Michael's POV

"Alica please." I said begging her. She was about a month pregnant and already you could tell. I guess triplets will do that to you.

Tonight was the Grammys and she didn't want to accompany me to them.


"I'm not going out there Michael!" She says in tears. "None of my dresses fit and my ass is fat!!!" This was really frustrating.

"You're ass is not fat." I replied. "Yes it is Michael!!" She replied."Just be honest with me!!!"

I hated to lie to people. So she had picked up some weight but she wasn't fat.

"So you picked up some weight but you're not fat." I said. This just caused her to burst out into more tears."My ass is fat!!" She wailed.

I give up.

"Michael if you don't get going now your gonna be late!!" Frank calls from downstairs."Just go with out me Mike." She says through more tears.I heard that some pregnant women cried a lot. In this case it was true.

If that was frustrating then how was I going to deal with 3 little babies? Don't get me wrong; I love children. But 3 all at once! We really need to start using condoms.

"I'll be back later." I said straightening my tie and kissing her on the forehead. She slightly pushed me away and hugged her knees. Tears streamed down her beautiful face.

I sighed and hurried down stairs. I need a drink.

Alica's POV
Who am I kidding. I'll never be able to push out 3 babies!
I mean don't get me wrong; I love kids but 3 all at once! I really need to be on birth control. My body is going through all these changes and I cant stand the morning sickness.

If this is getting on my nerves then how was I supposed to deal with 3 kids? I need a drink.

Oh, I forgot; I can't have one.

Alica's POV

After my crying spell was over with I turned on the tv.

"Tonight at the grammy's Michael Jackson walks away empty handed for his best selling album; Bad." "In other reportings we also noticed his wife; Alica Jackson was not in attendance."

"It was reported that about 3 months ago they were seen going to a marriage counselor." "Could there marital problems be the reason why Michael's work had not been his personal best lately?" "Could his wife's absence have jinked him?"

"I'm Kasandra Norrwood with entertainment tonight."

I grabbed the remote and turned off the tv. "Bullshit." I said. I was so sick of the media being in our personal lives. We worked it out. They don't know anything about us.

I sat up when I heard the door opening from down stairs. Poor Michael. He has to be upset. He was a perfectionist and when people thought his work wasn't good enough he worked his hardest to do better. It took him 5 years to make Bad. He had even started working on it before he met me! How dare them take his work for granted.

"Hi honey." I said as he entered the room. He looked so disappointed. "Hey." He dryly said loosening his tie and siting down on the bed. "I heard what happened." I said. He looked at me, sighed and then reached over and started rubbing my belly.

"It took me 5 whole years to complete Bad." He said. "Five years." "There's always another time Michael." I said. "I personally it was a wonderful album." "There always trying to keep people down." There just jealous you won the whole damn awards show last time."

I smiled at the memory. It was a wonderful night. It was also the same night Michael proposed.

February 1984

"Michael you shined like to sun out there!" I said as we walked hand in hand on one of our midnight strolls. He smiled and bit his lip. "It was really nothing." He said modestly. I smiled. "You're so cute when you try to act modest." "Alica I have something very important to ask you." He said fidgeting a bit. "Sure Mike, I'll listen to anything you have to say."

"Well, we've know each other for a while and it's really been wonderful." We stopped walking and I smiled. "It really has." I replied. "Well I think it's time to kick it up a notch." He said. I could already tell where he was going with this. "What do you mean?" I asked anyway.

He stood in front of me; the silver moon sparkling on his face. Then he got down on his knees and held both of my hands. "Alica Michell Bennet; would you do me the honors of being my wife?" I was in such shock I couldn't say anything.

"I want to be with you, to grow old with you." "You're the most beautiful person I've ever met; inside and out." "I know it will be hard being my wife because of who I am but I promise you I'll be with you ever step of the way." "For a chance to be with you I'd risk it all; I'd even go through the fire." "Please, say you'll be my wife; I won't stop until I hear your voice say I do."

My eyes where filled with tears. No guy could ever make me feel the way Michael does. I didn't hesitate.

"Yes Michael, I will!" "I love you more than life it's self." "I love you." Michael smiled and pulled me in for a passionate kiss. He started rummaging through his pockets and his jacket. "I can't find the ring." He said sheepishly. His cheeks red as strawberries. I smiled. "Don't worry about that now baby." I said silencing him with a kiss. I was on cloud nine. It was like the whole world had stopped except us.

******

"I'm sorry I didn't come." I said touching his face. "I'm just so nervous." "I've never had a kid before and now I'm having 3 all at once on my first time." "I'm scared Michael."

He continued to rub my belly. "I can't imagine how scared you must be." He said. "But don't every forget I'll be with you every step of the way." "I'll never leave your side." He kissed me and I couldn't help but feel like the luckiest woman in the world.

"What did I ever do to deserve you?"

Alica's POV

Today we find out the gender of the triplets. We're so excited!

I still can't believe I'm having triplets. It's like my stomach grows right before my eyes. One when one kicks they all kick; it's a chain reaction. It's been kind of difficult but Michael has been there; every step of the way.

**************
"What do you think we'll have?" I asked Michael as we waited on Dr.Haas. "Maybe will have mini Michaels" He replied with a smile.

I smiled at him and rubbed my tummy. "I'm sure we'll have a girl." "Or two." "Or three." "Oh, this is an interesting battle of the sexes." He says. "Well see about that."
**********

"Here's you're results." Dr. Haas says handing the envelope to Michael as I pull my shirt down. "You wanna open these now?" Michael ask raising and eyebrow. "Please do." I replied."I just wanna prove you wrong." He smiles at me and opens the envelope.

"Loose, Loose." Michael says with a bit of satisfaction in his voice. "One is a girl, another is a girl and one is a boy."

"Well there are still more girls than boys so I'd have to say your argument is invalid." I said proudly. Michael giggled. "Okay you win." "We should get going now, we've got to be on the road tomorrow."

I smiled daydreaming about the Jackson 3.

Alica's POV

Now where in Kansas. I'm standing backstage where only the people on stage can see me. I giggle as the Jackson 3 kick to the rhythm of "Bille Jean". I'm sure they get all that rhythm from that amazing father of theirs. Michael spots me out of the corner of his eye and winks at me.

Today is not just any day. Today is Michael's birthday. He doesn't think I'll make it known but he's wrong.

"Frank hand me a mic." I say as Michael tops it off and the crowd goes wild. I grab the cart with the cake on it. This is gonna surprise him.

"Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday dear Michael, Happy birthday to yoou." I sang. Michael's cheeks are red. The crowd is in shock. I don't know whether it's the fact that it's Michael's birthday or my pregnant belly. Probably my pregnant belly.

"Happy birthday love!!" I shout planting a kiss on his cheek. Michael smiles and blushes. He's all sweaty. I love it when he's sweaty. Sweat looks good on him.

"Babe I thought I told you not to tell anyone else." He says. The crowd giggles. "I just couldn't keep my mouth shut." I reply.

"So tell everybody how old you are today." I say locking arms with him. "29." He says shyly. I smile.

Then he flips the tables on me. I embarssed him he embarasses me. "While you're out here could you do me a favor?" He asked. "Anything for you honey." I replied. He smiles big and mischeviously as the first few cords of "I Just can't stop loving you" fills the auditorium. Oh no he didn't.

It's not that I couldn't sing, a lot of people said I had a beautiful voice. It's just that after not winning a singing competition I was nervous about singing in front of people; fearing that they'd judge my voice. And I'd never sang with Michael before.

Michael starts the song off beautifully. He holds me close as he sings to me. When my part comes I try to make it sound as beautiful as I can. Michael smiles at me. His eyes are filled with joy and love. The expression in his eyes was priceless. I wouldn't trade it for the world.


"I just can't stop loving you." We finish off. The crowd goes crazy as Michael pulls me in for a passionate kiss that lasted almost 5 minuets. I smiled widely and walked off stage. The surprise I had for him was even better.

Michael's POV

I rip my shirt and the crowd goes wild. We do final bows and then walk off stage. I'm so glad the show is over.

I walk back stage and Alica is the first person I run into. She has a big smile on her face and she's holding something behind her back.

"Hey you." I say dabbing my face with a towel. "Hey." She says planting a kiss on my lips. "Look what came in today." She says placing a book in my hands. I stare at the front cover. "Hey this is my book!!" I exclaimed. "It is honey." She replies. "I finished it and sent it to my publisher." "They loved it."

"This is wonderful babe." I said truly excited as I wrap my arms around her waist. "I love you." "I love us." I kissed her beautiful face. "I mean look at us." "Look at how far we've gotten." " Months ago we hated each other and now we just can't get enough of each other." She smiled. Tears of joy rolled down her face. "I know Michael; we made it." "I'm so glad." "I love you so much." "I need you, I can't loose you." "I just can't stop loving you."

**********

I smile as Michael holds he tightly through the night. His body is close to mine. I was so proud of us. Just think of all the lonely lovers who didn't make it. Well, you can mark us off the list.

When I think about everything we've been through it make me want to cry tears of joy. We went through the fire, to the limit; we went through it all and now our love is stronger than ever. I've been thinking about what it would have been like if I let Michael leave. I would have been a mess. I thank God everyday for telling me we need to work it out. I love Michael. I need Michael.

"You know what?" Michael says startleing me because I thought he was asleep. I turned to face him and rubbed his chest. "What?" I asked. "This was the best birthday ever." I smile and kiss him. He was right. I planned it that way.

Alica's POV

"I want these things out!!!" I said as I climbed into bed with Michael. I was 8 1/2 months now and I was ready for these babies to get out of here.

"Hang in there babe." Michael says touching my hand "You've made it this far. A lot of women wouldn't last that long in you're situation." Michael did have a point.

"Do you remember what tomorrow is?" He asked. "Yes." I replied with a big smile. Tomorrow was the day that we renew our vows. We went back to Encino to have the ceromony because Michael didn't want me to go into labor while we where out of town. If the babies are born then he's canceling the tour.

He's so sweet I was so happy I didn't care if I looked fat or not.

"I'm so happy for us." I said kissing Michael's hand. "Me too." "Words cannot describe how I feel." That night I went to sleep with a smile on my face.

********

I smiled nervously as every one watched me as I walked down the aisle. So I lied; I do care if I look fat but Rhonda; who's a wedding dress desginer made it so every one could tell I was pregnant.

Michael smiles at me. He's wearing one of his black suites. He looked sharp.I was so proud to say I loved him.

****

"Baby you gotta know that's for all time." Michael finished off. He sang the same song her wrote for our wedding the first time. I smiled as I wiped away tears.

"Alica, It's time to renew you're vows." The priest said slapping me out of my trance. I was getting a sharp pain in my abdonmen.

"Michael I know we've had our ups and downs but we put our hearts on the line and we made it right." "That shows me that together we are strong and we can overcome anything that stands in our way." "I promise to love you; to honor you; to cherish you because if I stop; I don't know what I'd do." Michael smiled.

"Alica, do you promise to stay true to these vows?" The priest asked.

"No!!" I shouted in pain. The crowd gasphed and Michael looked like he were about to burst out in tears.

"Oh, no; I promise to stay true to my vows." "I love you Michael; I need you."

"It's just that my water broke!!!"

Michael's POV

"Pardon?" I asked not really understanding what Alica was talking about. "My water just broke; that means I'm gonna have the babies!!!!!!!!!" Alica screamed.

I didn't know what to do.

"Get her to the hospital Michael!!!!" Mother screamed. With that I picked Alica up bridal style and headed for the limo. Mother followed me.
*********
"Are you hanging in there baby?!?!" I asked as we speed down the highway. "Ask questions later!!!!" Alica screamed. "This hurts like hell!!!!" "You're going to be just fine." Mother says as Alica's breathing get heavier.

I couldn't believe I was going to be a father today.

***********
"Move it, move it!!!!" I shouted busting through the doors of the hospital. I was never this rude but there was reporters everywhere. They need to get off my case. My wife is having a baby. "Michael, is it true that you brought the bones on the elephant man?" One of them ask. "Will Alica take custody of the baby?" One asked waiting on my response. "Ah go to hell!!!" I shouted pushing them out of my way. I was really nervous.
**********
"Just push." I said. When we were finally at the hospital. Alica is holding on my hand tightly. She's practically breaking it. "Get them out!!!!" She screams tightening her grip.

"One's almost out." Dr. Haas says. "Did you hear that baby; one's almost out." I said pushing her hair away from her face. "I can tell." She replies. "They felt so good going in but they hurt like hell going out!!!!!!"

"Michael come over hear in hold this leg." Dr.Haas says. "You would help Alica out more if you were more supportive." What the hell does he mean be more supportive?!?!

"You don't have to look." He says. "I just can't believe somethings getting ready to come out of there." I said disgusted. "All father say that." "If you made the baby help birth the baby." I took a deep breath.
************
30 minuets later 3 beautiful Jackson babies where brought into the world.

Alica's POV

Today on September 24 1987 Michael and I were blessed with 3 beautiful babies

Michaela Josphine Jackson
(Pronounced Mic.i.ella)

Michael Joseph Jackson Jr.

Marisol Julianne Jackson

We couldn't be happier.


"They are so beautiful!!" Kathrine explained As she held Marisol in her arms. "What can I say, they are their father's babies." I replied

They were beautiful. They all had thick, chocolate curls and their father's eyes. They were truly beautiful babies.

Michael's POV

I'll always remember the pride and joy I felt that day. Those where my beautiful babies and I was proud to call them my own.

"We're out numbered." I said to little Michael as he sleeps peacefully in my arms. "But it's all worth it."
Alica smiles at me as she rocks Michaela in her arms.

"I'm so happy." I say kissing her forehead. "Me too." She says. "And you know I'll be there every step of the way." She smiles really big. "I'm so blessed." She says resting her head on the pillow.

We we're so full of joy that day there are now words to express how happy we were. I was really convinced that there was not a single happier person in the world.

3 weeks later.

Alica's POV

"Michael you know I don't like blindfolds." I said. Michael said he had an extra special surprise for us. We had been driving for an hour now. The babies cooed happily from the back seat. They never sleep!! I was anxious to know what he had planned.

"We're almost there." He sings. I giggle and sit back.

*********
"We're here!!" He announces. he opens the door for me. He pauses a few minuets to get the Jackson 3 in their stroller and then takes the blind fold off. In front of my eyes was a big beautiful house. In front of the house were huge gates the beheld the golden letters Neverland across them.

"Michael this is beautiful but what is it?" I asked confused. "Baby this is home." He replied simply.

"Home?" I ask. "Yes, home." He replies. "I figured we were going to need some space so our little ones." "I figured I'd be nice if they grew up some place private; away from all the tabliods and paprrazi.""I figured it would be nice for them to have a normal childhood and I figured I'd be nice for us to start off fresh on some new grounds."

"Oh Michael, I love you!!" I said embracing him. I love that man from head to toe.

******

Neverland was simply beautiful. I knew the triplets would enjoy growing up here. They would have an amusement park soon. Pets when they got older, they have a beautiful nursery with a painting from the movie Peter Pan that Michael did himself on the wall. It's a wonderful place to grow up in.
*******
"This is the best room in the house." Michael said before he opened the big door. We had put the Jackson 3 down for the day and now it was just us.

He opened the door to a beautiful bedroom. It was painted a brighter shade of red and had a big king sizes bed. It was simply beautiful. "This is us?" I asked. "Yes." Michael replied. "This is our home now." "A home that overflowing with love." "A home that is waiting on memories and laughter." "This is home." "Well lets make our first memory right here and now." I said pulling Michael in for a passionate kiss. Michael smiles, pulls my by the waist into the bedroom and locks the door.






When I think back on everything that's happened in the last few months I realized that sometimes in life you've got to go the extra mile. Sometimes you've got to put your heart on the line.



Let me tell you; it's worth it.