"No way noooo fucking way I'm calling him!" I say outloud to myself as I shove the little piece of paper back inside of the cd case, throwing it in the trash. Jumping back in to bed, I continue to lay wide awake in the darkness, my mind wandering back over to the series of events that had happened earlier at Virgin Record Store. I had to admit, seeing the look of pure joy on Nadia's face made my day. It felt good knowing that I was able to provide her with a rockin birthday gift and an even more rockin birthday party, which I STILL needed to start planning soon.....see? I actually DO have a heart when it comes to my baby sister.....cue the audience cooing:awwww. I smiled a little bit in the darkness but then my smile fades as memories of HIM start to form. Okay, I'll admit he wasn't nearly as bad looking in person....hell, he actually was pretty handsome....."Snap outta it Fall!" I scold myself, shaking my head. Shutting my eyes, I try to force myself to sleep despite my annoying insomnia.....tomorrow was gonna be a loooong day for sure.....

"How does it feeeel! How doooooes it feeel!" My cell phone a.k.a. Mr. Sexy as hell D'Angelo blares out, instantly snapping me awake. "Ugh the freakin hell?!" I manage to groan out from underneath the covers. Pulling them back, I reach over for my cell. "What?!" I answer it. "Um....H-Hey Autumn! It's Stacy......do you know what time it is??" she asks. Scratching my neck, I let out a yawn as I glance over at the clock on my wall. "Uh it's 2:35.....why?" I respond but then get quiet as the time hits me. "AW SHIT I'M LATE!!!!" I scream, immediately jumping out of bed, damn near tripping over the covers. In all the commotion I manage to drop my cell on the floor. "Will you still be able to take my shift Autumn?" I could hear Stacy's Britney Spears voice ask. What? That's EXACTLY who she sounds like since her voice is so high. I quickly pick up my cell. "Yeah yeah I'm on my way bye!" I hang up. I practically rip my Scooby doo pyjamas off and throw on my black dress pants with a red silk blouse. "I didn't even have time to take a damn shower!" I whine, running into the bathroom to brush my teeth. I put my long brown hair up in a ponytail and put on a little black eye liner with mascara and some pink lip gloss. "Shit shit triple shit" I curse to myself as I quickly grab my black high heels, cell phone, purse, and car keys and run like lightning out of my apartment. Of course people decide to give me weird looks because I'm walking outside with no shoes on but I ignore it. 'I'll put em on in the car' I think to myself as I get inside my car and drive off towards my job. By the time I finally arrive, I could feel my heart just wanting to BURST out of my chest. NEVER in my years of working at this job had I ever been this late, especially FIVE HOURS since I was originally supposed to be there around eight this morning. When I arrive and check in at the front desk, all the other employees are practically waiting in anticipation for the boss to chew out my ass. I quickly take my seat in my chair of my little office, beginning to type away at the stack of documents on my desk on my computer. "Gurrrrl the boss is gonna kick your ass!" I hear my best friend Kristen say. Her office was right in front of mine. "Nice to see you too Kristy.....love the new top" "How the hell were you THAT late Fall?! I mean, I could understand being an hour late, but five hours?!" Kristen says. I let out a sigh before I answered, rubbing my temples. "Kristen I overslept.....what it's the truth!" I argue as I notice the look Kristen gives me, obviously not buying it. "Oh really? You weren't hanging out with....Justin?" Justin was my boyfriend. I shake my head. "NO I wasn't with J last nite! I actually took my sister out to nyc for her bday if you must know.....we went to Virgin Records for the 'Invincible' album signings" I say. Kristen's green eyes go wide. "You actually went to that?! Why didn't you take me gurl?! You KNOW how much I looove me some Michael Jackson!" "And That's exactly why I didn't take yo thirsty ass!" I joke. "Excuse me Miss. Grey? Mr. Thompson would like to see you in his office now...." Mindy says. "Shit...." I curse under my breath, my palms starting to sweat. Mr. Thompson is my boss, Mindy is his lovely assistant. I look over at my best friend, the both of us thinking the same thing. "I'll keep you in my prayers hun" Kristen says causing my to laugh a little. Taking a deep breath, I follow Mindy down the hallway and into Mr. Thompson's office.......

I spend almost over an hour in Mr. Thompson's office. The majority of the time was spent of him yelling at me over and over again saying how it was inexcusable and irresponsible for me to be five hours late and that I shouldn't agree to take another person's extra shift if I can't even remember my own. He also made it clear that if I was late again, I'd be suspended 3 weeks without pay....ain't that some shit? I don't even attempt to talk back as I silently nod my head in agreement. When I resurface back to my desk, I don't talk to anyone not even Kristen as I try to finish all of the extra paperwork files. I don't go out on my lunch break, hell, I don't even take my lunch break, I just continue working at the computer. Around 5:30ish all the other employees leave for the nite including Kristen. I also notice that Britney Spears a.k.a. Stacy leaves a bit earlier before everyone else, claiming she was late for something important. Maybe she finished all of her assigned work already? Kristen gives me a big hug, promises to give me a call later on tonight. She also wishes me and Justin a happy two year anniversary. I smile wide. That's right! Tonight was our two year anniversary.....I can't wait to get home and celebrate with him....hopefully we'll go out to dinner and a movie. By the time I finally finish all the paperwork, the clock reads 9:30 pm. After locking everything up, I get inside my car and drive back to my apartment, taking my time. Hopefully if Justin's at my place (I gave him a key) he'd understand why I'm arriving so late. I hope he can cheer me up since right now I'm feeling like total crap due to getting yelled at by my boss. I turn on the radio. 'You give me butterfliiiiiiies inside inside and I just wanna touch and kiss.....' The male voice on the radio sings. Completely oblivious to who it is, I bob my head to the beat. The song is pretty dope and the singer has a great voice! But why does that voice sound SO familiar? Like I've heard it somewhere before.....By the time the song finishes I pull up into my apartment complex and park. Getting out of the car, I find myself humming the song quietly to myself. I go to pull out my keys to open my front door but am surprised to find it already unlocked. Hm that's odd.....then I smile. Knowing who's already inside. Opening the door, I tip toe inside. "Jay? Baby you in here?" I call out softly but I don't get a reply. He might be sleeping since I know he had to work today as well. I slowly walk up the stairs, unbuttoning my blouse so now only my black Victoria's secret bra was showing. "Baby?" I call out again, reaching the top of the stairs. I then unzip my black dress pants, suddenly feeling the need to feel sexy. I don't know, maybe it was the song doing something to me.....I look over and find my bedroom door shut which was funny, considering the fact that I left it wide open when I rushed out this morning. Without thinking, I turn the knob and walk in. "Justin baby are you in here-" I begin but stop mid sentence as I see Justin sprawled out on my bed, his bare legs wide open, a look of pure pleasure contorted on his features now followed by a look of pure horror and shock as he realizes that I'm standing here. "S-Shit Autumn" he stutters. I glance downward and notice the girl on her hands and knees in from of him, her mesh of long dirty blonde curls, and finally I hear it. That annoying Spears-like giggle....The mystery girl turns around and I can't fucking believe it. "STACY?!!!!" I screetch at the top of my lungs. Stacy gasps. She scurries to her feet, covering her bare chest with her arms. "T-This, I swear this isn't what it looks like!" She cries, the waterworks forming in her crystal blue eyes. Meanwhile Justin's still sitting on the bed, trying desperately to cover up his erection. Closing my eyes, I turn away from the both of them, pointing at the bedroom door. "Both of you....get out of my house now" "Autumn look-" "GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY HOUSE NOW!!!!" I scream, my face turning red from anger. Stacy takes off running down the stairs, taking her pink t shirt and skinny jeans with her. Justin gets up from the bed, tries to walk over towards where I'm standing but I put my hands up. "Don't. Come any closer and I swear I'll cut your dick off. Just give me back my key....we're done" I say surprisingly super calm. Letting out a sigh, Justin leans down to put back on his boxers and jeans. He then puts back on his work t shirt and hands me my key but I don't take it from him. "Place it on the dresser" I  say. "Autumn please, let me explain-" "Justin please just leave before I end up getting arrested for murder" I warn and I'm dead serious, no pun intended. Letting out another deep sigh, Justin walks out of my bedroom, down the stairs and leaves. When I finally hear the sound of the front door close, I sink to the carpeted floor, let out a scream and cry my eyes out. I can't tell you how long I spent on the floor crying, probably a good 2 to 3 hours. Kristen calls me but I don't answer. My sister Nadia also calls and sends me a text but I don't reply to either. I'm really not in the mood for talking tonight. I roughly throw my red blouse and black pants in the hamper, left now only in my bra and undies but I could care less. I'm not trying to impress anyone anymore.....Going slowly down the stairs, I walk into the kitchen, pull out a bottle of scotch and vodka. I drink both straight from the bottle, not even bothering to get a glass. It doesn't take long for that warm buzz feeling to start kicking in my system. Ah just what I needed. I struggle to walk back upstairs with a bottle of scotch in one hand, a bottle of vodka in the other. When I reach inside my bedroom, I fall to the floor, the tears welling up in my eyes yet again. "I-I've gotta t-talk to someone....someone who'll u-understand me!" I slurr out as I crawl around my floor for my phone book but for the life of me can't seem to find it. "That fucker p-probably t-took it" I growl outloud as I head for my trash can and look inside, the white 'Invincible' cover staring at me. Mocking me. I reach down and pull the CD out from the trash and examine it. "H-Hey he's pretty c-cute!" I say, kissing  CD cover. I then open up the case, crawl over towards my little boom box, place the cd in and press play. Immediately I like what I hear. I start skipping threw the first couple of tracks before I end up settling on one that sound a lot like the one I had heard earlier on the radio. As I keep on listening to the song I realize it is in fact the same song from before! "Buttterflieeeees insiiide" I sang all out of tune along with the chorus. I stumble up off the floor and start dancing clumsily around the room, my eyes closed. When I open them again, a little white piece of paper catches my eye. It must've fallen out of the CD case. Bending down, I pick it up and read it out loud. I also read out the number written on it.....Hmmm should I.....call him? Still holding the piece of paper in my hand, I grab my cell and go take a seat on my bed. I frantically begin dialing the number and put my cell to my ear. It rings for a few times and right before I'm about to give up and hang up, somebody finally answers. "Hello?" I remain silent, not really knowing what to say. I had actually LOST my words if that makes any sense. "Hello?" The voice asked a little louder this time. "Um...sorry I think I have the wrong number....I wanted pizza" I manage to slurr out. The person on the other end is quiet for a moment before answering. "A-Autumn? Is that you?" The voice asks. I gasp. "You....know.....name? You know my n-name?" "Of course I do! It's Michael. Are you alright? You don't sound too good" Michael says. I'm still amazed over the fact that he remembers my name! "Autumn? You still there?" Michael's voice snaps me out of my trance. "Hm? Yeah I'm here!" I giggle like a giddy school girl. "You sure you okay Autumn? Have you been....drinking?" Michael asks. Boy, he sounds really concerned! I shake my head even though he can't see me. "No! I didn't drink at all! Well, m-maybe a lil. I did drink a little....okay, I drank ALOT! I had scotch mixed with vodka" I confess. "Oh my God Autumn!!, are you trying to hurt yourself!" Michael yells a bit over the phone line. I wince. "Owie you're too loud! You hurt my ear" I whine. "Where are you?" Michael asks. "In my placey! It's on 112 Willow Avenue south of-" "Hold on, I'm on my way" Michael cuts me off, hanging up. "Well then! That was mighty rude mister!" I say as I throw my cell to the floor and curl up into a ball on my bed, the CD still playing in the background. I didn't realize, but somehow I had managed to fall asleep, well, not REALLY fall asleep. It was more like I tightly shut my eyes with my hands covered over my ears, trying to block out the annoying pounding going on in my head. Suddenly I heard the sound of footsteps coming up the stairs followed by a voice. "Autumn? Are you in here?" With my eyes still closed, I replied. "Autumn's here! Go away! I don't want no girl scout cookies! Come back l-later!" Hey don't judge, I was OUT OF IT. The person still walked inside my bedroom anyway. I heard their foot steps walk over to turn my boom box off. "Hey! I was l-listening to t-that!" I whine, opening my eyes and sitting up but I moved way to quickly and my head as well my stomach didn't like that. "Oh my goooood" I moaned, placing my head in my hands. When I slowly rose my head up again I was surprised to see who was now standing in my room. "M-Michael? W-What are you doing h-here?"